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12-18-06
Hi Kulot,
Musta na? I was here! hehe.... dito me sa chair mo kasi wala ka anyway thank you so much bout last nyt ha... I really appreciate what you did thank you for all the advice... hope I can apply it to my situation. Mahirap talaga but I need to... tnx ulit
miss you!
(unknown)
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12/22/2006
HI XYRA,
I HOPE OK KA NA. BAYAAN MO SELOS LANG YAN, O BAKA NAMAN EPEKTO LANG NG PILLS MO YAN.
TAKE CARE LOVE LOTS
EMILY
P.S. ISA LANG NAMAN ANG DAHILAN CIA UN!
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12/25/06 16:12
XYRA,
MERRY CHRISTMAS... & A HAPPY NEW YEAR!
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING AND FOR BEING A TRUE FRIEND! SORRY IF I HURT YOU IN ANY WAY!
LOVE YOU GIRL! =)
(unknown)
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12/31/06 3:11am
XYRA...
SORRY HA! KINDA MAGULO LANG ME
NGAYON KAYA MOODY ME! MAYBE I JUST MISS YOU GUYS... BASTA ALWAYS TAKE
CARE OF YOURSELF K! I'M JUST A TEXT AWAY! SEE YAH! LOVE YAH! =P
MWUAHKS...
(unknown)
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Wednesday, August 8, 2012
Sunday, August 5, 2012
A Final Word To Attain MY VOW
(You might think it's stupid, I know. You write and you just hope and you trust that the message will come across. I guess this is what happens if you were not given a closure. You act on it and give yourself a decent closure. It's over! haha I'm all smiles...)
My last message for Ace:
"I
don't hate you. It's over and acceptance is the key. Apparently I have
fully accepted everything. I feel light as a feather. Maybe because I
know in my heart that I didn't do anything to hurt you. I didn't do
anything wrong. I did everything for the best. I never lied. I never
cheated. I was a good person to you. My heart is pure. I think that's
the reason why I feel happy and free! There's no guilt, no remorse, no
regrets but all smiles. There is no more hate in my heart after all.
Even after all the things you did, I am happy. I am free! Whatever
happened, whatever you did.. is definitely not my burden to take. I'm
guilt-free!
I just want you to know Ace, that I don't hate you. I still love you and I would only want the best for you. I thank you for all the love that you have given me. I appreciate everything that you did for me and all the efforts you made for me. I thank you for the genuine love and devotion you gave me. It mattered a lot to me. After all the bad things you did, I know you did something right and I keep that in my heart.
Wherever you are, whatever you do, I wish you all the best. I know you can not bear the idea of facing me again after everything you did. I just want you to know that I have already forgiven you and I really hope we can still be friends. I hope you forgive yourself too. There are other worse scenarios you know and other worse people than you. You're not all that bad. I know that you have a good heart. I hope you find yourself again.
There is still hope for you. I'm sorry if I ever did something or made you feel something that led you to be the way you are now. I want to be there for you.
Thank you so much for everything. You are a good person. You have a good heart. I really hope you come back to the your true self."
It's never too late.
I just want you to know Ace, that I don't hate you. I still love you and I would only want the best for you. I thank you for all the love that you have given me. I appreciate everything that you did for me and all the efforts you made for me. I thank you for the genuine love and devotion you gave me. It mattered a lot to me. After all the bad things you did, I know you did something right and I keep that in my heart.
Wherever you are, whatever you do, I wish you all the best. I know you can not bear the idea of facing me again after everything you did. I just want you to know that I have already forgiven you and I really hope we can still be friends. I hope you forgive yourself too. There are other worse scenarios you know and other worse people than you. You're not all that bad. I know that you have a good heart. I hope you find yourself again.
There is still hope for you. I'm sorry if I ever did something or made you feel something that led you to be the way you are now. I want to be there for you.
Thank you so much for everything. You are a good person. You have a good heart. I really hope you come back to the your true self."
It's never too late.
The Final Good byes = The End
August 4, 2012Xyra Contreras- Hello to you all,
For the record, I just want to say that Ace had been a very good kuya to his siblings. When we were together, Ace was devoted to his family as much as he was devoted to me. He never sacrificed his family. He was always looking after their welfare. When we were together, our rule was always "our family first" because I also help my dad and my family.
Back in the days, I saw the way my dad is with Ace. He was very responsible and he always made sure that his family is okay. He was very consistent in providing for them. I decided to message you because I want to give Ace credit for everything he had done for his family. He did everything for them. It was not easy for Ace especially when issues ALWAYS come into play. It’s unfair for Ace if his efforts are not noticed. Especially now, that he is no longer communicating well with Nanay and his family. It’s easy to notice the bad things and it’s so easy to forget the good things that one had done. It was very exhausting for Ace to begin with. I guess he just got tired.
For all the bad things Ace had done, he definitely did something right and I keep that in my heart. I have already forgiven him. I hope he find it in his heart to forgive himself, come back to all of you, reunite with Nanay and his family. Ace has a good heart. Everything happens for a reason. I know you all love Ace to bits. I always wish the best for you and your family.
This is my good bye to all of you. Thank you for everything and thank you so much for listening. God bless you all.
Good bye
August 4, 2012Joselito Cedro Hitosis- Thanks for the admirable words your have spoken/written for our nephew Ace most esp your forgiveness. You made him that way in all in his good effort and love to his family and to you as well... I wish him and you all the best, praying that you continue to move on and see the brighter side of what happened.
God bless you Xyra, Ingat palagi...
August 4, 2012Janneth Godwin- Thank you Xyra! You take care of yourself... All the best! Have a good life. Love to u and to your family xxx
Tuesday, July 31, 2012
Letters From Ace Five Years Ago
It's just amusing to find these letters and after reading it's content, I can say that it came from someone who is truly, deeply, madly in love. No hard feelings. Just smiles.
Baby Boo....
Don't falter and never lose hope in my love for you for it is the reason that makes me stronger and complete. It is always you whom I respect the most, whom I adore and look up to because of all the people I know of you treated me with the same things. You taught me things that I never would have known if I hadn't met you and because of you, I would not be who I am right now....
"I know I'm in love with you. Because each time we look at each other's eyes, my heart swells and skips a beat. When we talk about life, it renews my energy and gives me the courage to go on. Whenever we touch each other's hands., a kind of electricity courses through my body. And when we are in each other's arms, it's such a heavenly feeling.
I just know I'm in love with you, simply because I'm happy being with you."
I love you, simply because I really do and I won't get tired saying those words because it's meaning is true.
Ace
Baby ko,
It was really hard for me to write down the things that I wanna say to you.... I dunno why, you know, before I met you I was a decent writer. I could easily put my thoughts into a piece of paper but now I don't know where it is now... The thing about you is you push me... a lot. You tell me things that hurts me but it hurts me coz it's true, you push me to be the best man that I can be... You test me coz you know I could do better. You try my patience coz you want me to be patient. You help me realize the things that I've done wrong and make me realize it by thinking about it myself. You make me strong by showing that you care, you give me passion by looking crazy at me, showing romance by hugging or kissing me. Showing love by standing beside me through thick and thin...
I could give you a lot of reasons why I love you but really the only reason that I love you is because I really do love you.
Sorry if this letter was just given to you this late but I know you'll understand and forgive me...
Happy birthday My Love, My Baby, My Princess, My Life.
I Love you Xyra
*mwuah*
Baby Boo....
Don't falter and never lose hope in my love for you for it is the reason that makes me stronger and complete. It is always you whom I respect the most, whom I adore and look up to because of all the people I know of you treated me with the same things. You taught me things that I never would have known if I hadn't met you and because of you, I would not be who I am right now....
"I know I'm in love with you. Because each time we look at each other's eyes, my heart swells and skips a beat. When we talk about life, it renews my energy and gives me the courage to go on. Whenever we touch each other's hands., a kind of electricity courses through my body. And when we are in each other's arms, it's such a heavenly feeling.
I just know I'm in love with you, simply because I'm happy being with you."
I love you, simply because I really do and I won't get tired saying those words because it's meaning is true.
Ace
Baby ko,
It was really hard for me to write down the things that I wanna say to you.... I dunno why, you know, before I met you I was a decent writer. I could easily put my thoughts into a piece of paper but now I don't know where it is now... The thing about you is you push me... a lot. You tell me things that hurts me but it hurts me coz it's true, you push me to be the best man that I can be... You test me coz you know I could do better. You try my patience coz you want me to be patient. You help me realize the things that I've done wrong and make me realize it by thinking about it myself. You make me strong by showing that you care, you give me passion by looking crazy at me, showing romance by hugging or kissing me. Showing love by standing beside me through thick and thin...
I could give you a lot of reasons why I love you but really the only reason that I love you is because I really do love you.
Sorry if this letter was just given to you this late but I know you'll understand and forgive me...
Happy birthday My Love, My Baby, My Princess, My Life.
I Love you Xyra
*mwuah*
Monday, July 9, 2012
Irony
In my four years stint in this company, I submitted a resignation letter twice. The
first time was almost four years ago when I was with the company for only two months. I was pulled out several times. My
trainer tried to convince me to stay. My colleagues did too. Our HR
Business partner put me on retention sessions. I was firm. They promised
me benefits and perks that will favor me. I gave in and decided to
stay.
The second time was 2 years later. I rendered a 30 day grace period. Again, my manager tried to retain me. And again, I was firm with my decision. I was forwarded to her manager who, again, tried to retain me. She asked me to give them one more chance. I stayed quiet. She decided to give me what I wanted that would make me stay which is career growth and mobility so then I stayed.
Time came that I embraced this company. I love this company. I was an advocate. I had the habit of talking some sense to colleagues who have been dragging themselves to work and motivate them. Let them see the benefits and advantages that tends to be blurry at times because it gets overlooked due to stress of the mundane rut.
Until... I was forced to resign...
The second time was 2 years later. I rendered a 30 day grace period. Again, my manager tried to retain me. And again, I was firm with my decision. I was forwarded to her manager who, again, tried to retain me. She asked me to give them one more chance. I stayed quiet. She decided to give me what I wanted that would make me stay which is career growth and mobility so then I stayed.
Time came that I embraced this company. I love this company. I was an advocate. I had the habit of talking some sense to colleagues who have been dragging themselves to work and motivate them. Let them see the benefits and advantages that tends to be blurry at times because it gets overlooked due to stress of the mundane rut.
Until... I was forced to resign...
Sunday, July 8, 2012
The Year That Started Everything
They say if you have a bad year, the year after that will be a great year.
and vice versa?
It was the year 2010 when my family experienced a freak car accident. Everyone was okay except I was in a critical condition. It was the most eventful year of my life.
I survived.
I'm not sure anymore if it's a good thing that I survived that accident. If it's true what they say, here's an overview of my life in the past three years..
2010 The Freak Accident
This brought my family closer to God and closer to each other. My dad became open to me being in a relationship and my family loved him like their own. They saw how devoted he is to me and that he will be a good husband, just right for me. They say, it's not easy to find a man like him. I was very lucky.
2011 The Transformation and The Cheating
My boyfriend, my partner whom I kept a secret from my family for three years was finally introduced and let out to my family. He was loved and accepted like he's part of the family. Suddenly, this so called "devoted partner" transformed into someone unfamiliar. The cheating started in the year 2010, but the year 2011 was when he was becoming really transparent.
2012 The Revelaton, The Termination, The 200k Retrenchment Pay
The cheating with a "frontal female" was revealed. I call it "Frontal Female" because she wasn't the real girl he cheated me on to begin with. The "cheating" started in 2010 with a disgusting jappayuki right at the same year when the so called "devoted partner" was revealed to my family.
I was forced to resign with the company I found comfort with for the last 4 years then I learned that there will be a 200k retrenchment pay if redeployment will be unsuccessful by September.
Tell me. What is ironic?
Somebody told me that the accident is just part of the script. If all of these are painstakingly planned and strategized to something..
Then what's next?
and vice versa?
It was the year 2010 when my family experienced a freak car accident. Everyone was okay except I was in a critical condition. It was the most eventful year of my life.
I survived.
I'm not sure anymore if it's a good thing that I survived that accident. If it's true what they say, here's an overview of my life in the past three years..
2010 The Freak Accident
This brought my family closer to God and closer to each other. My dad became open to me being in a relationship and my family loved him like their own. They saw how devoted he is to me and that he will be a good husband, just right for me. They say, it's not easy to find a man like him. I was very lucky.
2011 The Transformation and The Cheating
My boyfriend, my partner whom I kept a secret from my family for three years was finally introduced and let out to my family. He was loved and accepted like he's part of the family. Suddenly, this so called "devoted partner" transformed into someone unfamiliar. The cheating started in the year 2010, but the year 2011 was when he was becoming really transparent.
2012 The Revelaton, The Termination, The 200k Retrenchment Pay
The cheating with a "frontal female" was revealed. I call it "Frontal Female" because she wasn't the real girl he cheated me on to begin with. The "cheating" started in 2010 with a disgusting jappayuki right at the same year when the so called "devoted partner" was revealed to my family.
I was forced to resign with the company I found comfort with for the last 4 years then I learned that there will be a 200k retrenchment pay if redeployment will be unsuccessful by September.
Tell me. What is ironic?
Somebody told me that the accident is just part of the script. If all of these are painstakingly planned and strategized to something..
Then what's next?
Awkward..
Here I am, moving forward.. happy.. free..
While your mom on the other hand is doing everything she can
So you will end up with me
It's awkward yes
I'm just a decent girl with a good upbringing
I just respond courteously
Nevertheless, hopes will be for you and not for me
Because it will always be my decision to make.
While your mom on the other hand is doing everything she can
So you will end up with me
It's awkward yes
I'm just a decent girl with a good upbringing
I just respond courteously
Nevertheless, hopes will be for you and not for me
Because it will always be my decision to make.
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