A psychotic person accurately defines you. You're someone who exhibits a mental or emotional unsoundness or instability. Most of your behavior with me suggests all the possible definitions of unstable and unsound which are mostly cringe-worthy. I really don't want to be scared with the way you behave with me but it feels like I'll just be in complete denial if I would still try to convince myself that there's nothing wrong with you because your conduct infers otherwise.
The funny thing about you is that you are actually capable of admitting all your mistakes, all your craziness and all your unstable behavior. You already did admit defeat before and I see you doing it again and again. You go back and forth in a very aggressive way which is exhausting. You actually are the only person I know who can be capable of admission and denial of guilt simultaneously in an aggressive manner.
Things you say change in a matter of seconds. It's like you're just thinking out loud and blaming everything to the person you're talking to.
To be honest, I don't think I can still help you anymore. I think I did more than enough for you but it's never enough and I'm still the bad person. I blocked you 6 years ago. Your life shattered into pieces. We reunited and you made me feel guilty that's why I felt obligated to redeem you. Now that you're better, I'm still the one with the bad attitude that's why we argue all the time according to you. I avoided you again and again to keep my peace. I tried but you simply just can't handle it. You can't handle without hearing from me for a long time. I just muted you and I quietly exited the scenes. I silently stepped away to avoid any drama. I remained passive and nonchalant. You can't handle it. It's absolutely necessary for you to restore our communication so you can say or do something to tick me off so drama would ensue.
Why do I allow it, you ask? I'm sure you know why. While it racks my brain how and why you do it like a pro, that I get blindsided by your ridiculous pattern, you package yourself to be my good, old, familiar friend. How can I not buy that? I genuinely think you are because I genuinely am. I know I can't block you anymore because that's another bait for you to pull me back to one of your life dramas. I'm done with all your drama!
If you ask me, I wanted to remain good friends with you. I really do want to keep you because you have proven yourself someone worth keeping. But there's something deeply wrong with you that you're still not satisfied with whatever relationship we can still have that you have to initiate chaos. You're supposed to be better but you make a big mess of something that can be peaceful. I can no longer allow you to still continue all your sneaky mental and emotional abuse. Enough is enough!
You will never hear anything from me ever again. This is it. I won't block you but you will remain restricted and this will be final! You have to let me keep my peace because I deserve this peace. I worked so damn hard to keep my peace and it's mine to keep. It's my life and you have no right to take my peace away from me. Go take your drama some place else but definitely not with me.
It's over! I won't buy any more of our sneaky drama. Leave me alone. Please!
