Selfsame

This radical familiarity with you

Brimmed my mind with so many questions

It deemed thoughts of unfathomable possibilities

My cosmic being started to question my totality

Is it really fluid, one’s sexuality?

With endless query I tried to justify

Oh yes, the desire is not implausible

My heart speaks, it feels and it cries

It is grounded only with genuine emotions

That is the rationale for being alone for so long

Have I really touched a soul with the same peculiarities?

Or has it only touched me?

But I know I played a cryptic game

I listened to what you struggled not to say

And heard what I tried not to hear

I strained to have said what I was dying to say

And you heard not what you tried to hear

We never dropped our mental walls and defense drapes

We took each other’s ambiguous words

It folded me like a repelled child shut out in a game

When you never let your heart speak

You turned your back on a fairy tale

So I made you face your fears

I led your young heart to long more for something coequal

Despite this pain I reap

Then the past, it became and it remained unspoken

My ears are deafened with an imperturbable silence

I’m left with nothing but an empty space

But like a jagged little pill, I embrace

All those fleeting moments with you I have craved

Jun 18, 2006 9:37 PM