Letters From Ace Five Years Ago

It's just amusing to find these letters and after reading it's content, I can say that it came from someone who is truly, deeply, madly in love. No hard feelings. Just smiles.

Baby Boo....

Don't falter and never lose hope in my love for you for it is the reason that makes me stronger and complete. It is always you whom I respect the most, whom I adore and look up to because of all the people I know of you treated me with the same things. You taught me things that I never would have known if I hadn't met you and because of you, I would not be who I am right now....

"I know I'm in love with you. Because each time we look at each other's eyes, my heart swells and skips a beat. When we talk about life, it renews my energy and gives me the courage to go on. Whenever we touch each other's hands., a kind of electricity courses through my body. And when we are in each other's arms, it's such a heavenly feeling.

I just know I'm in love with you, simply because I'm happy being with you."

I love you, simply because I really do and I won't get tired saying those words because it's meaning is true.

Ace

Baby ko,

It was really hard for me to write down the things that I wanna say to you.... I dunno why, you know, before I met you I was a decent writer. I could easily put my thoughts into a piece of paper but now I don't know where it is now... The thing about you is you push me... a lot. You tell me things that hurts me but it hurts me coz it's true, you push me to be the best man that I can be... You test me coz you know I could do better. You try my patience coz you want me to be patient. You help me realize the things that I've done wrong and make me realize it by thinking about it myself. You make me strong by showing that you care, you give me passion by looking crazy at me, showing romance by hugging or kissing me. Showing love by standing beside me through thick and thin...

I could give you a lot of reasons why I love you but really the only reason that I love you is because I really do love you.

Sorry if this letter was just given to you this late but I know you'll understand and forgive me...

Happy birthday My Love, My Baby, My Princess, My Life.

I Love you Xyra
*mwuah* 

Irony

In my four years stint in this company, I submitted a resignation letter twice. The first time was almost four years ago when I was with the company for only two months. I was pulled out several times. My trainer tried to convince me to stay. My colleagues did too. Our HR Business partner put me on retention sessions. I was firm. They promised me benefits and perks that will favor me. I gave in and decided to stay.

The second time was 2 years later. I rendered a 30 day grace period. Again, my manager tried to retain me. And again, I was firm with my decision. I was forwarded to her manager who, again, tried to retain me. She asked me to give them one more chance. I stayed quiet. She decided to give me what I wanted that would make me stay which is career growth and mobility so then I stayed.

Time came that I embraced this company. I love this company. I was an advocate. I had the habit of talking some sense to colleagues who have been dragging themselves to work and motivate them. Let them see the benefits and advantages that tends to be blurry at times because it gets overlooked due to stress of the mundane rut.

Until... I was forced to resign...

The Year That Started Everything

They say if you have a bad year, the year after that will be a great year. 

and vice versa?


It was the year 2010 when my family experienced a freak car accident. Everyone was okay except I was in a critical condition. It was the most eventful year of my life.

I survived.

I'm not sure anymore if it's a good thing that I survived that accident. If it's true what they say, here's an overview of my life in the past three years..

2010 The Freak Accident
This brought my family closer to God and closer to each other. My dad became open to me being in a relationship and my family loved him like their own. They saw how devoted he is to me and that he will be a good husband, just right for me. They say, it's not easy to find a man like him. I was very lucky.

2011 The Transformation and The Cheating
My boyfriend, my partner whom I kept a secret from my family for three years was finally introduced and let out to my family. He was loved and accepted like he's part of the family. Suddenly, this so called "devoted partner" transformed into someone unfamiliar. The cheating started in the year 2010, but the year 2011 was when he was becoming really transparent.

2012 The Revelaton, The Termination, The 200k Retrenchment Pay
The cheating with a "frontal female" was revealed.  I call it "Frontal Female" because she wasn't the real girl he cheated me on to begin with. The "cheating" started in 2010 with a disgusting jappayuki right at the same year when the so called "devoted partner" was revealed to my family.
I was forced to resign with the company I found comfort with for the last 4 years then I learned that there will be a 200k retrenchment pay if redeployment will be unsuccessful by September.

Tell me. What is ironic?

Somebody told me that the accident is just part of the script. If all of these are painstakingly planned and strategized to something..

Then what's next?

Awkward..

Here I am, moving forward.. happy.. free..

While your mom on the other hand is doing everything she can

So you will end up with me

It's awkward yes

I'm just a decent girl with a good upbringing

I just respond courteously

Nevertheless, hopes will be for you and not for me

Because it will always be my decision to make.