Mar
6, 2007 7:52 PM
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I'M NOT A PLAYER SO DAMN YOU HATERS!!!
People question my stand on
relationships with “significant persons” in my life. Is it that hard to believe
that a person with such personality and appeal (ehem!) could stay single for a
very long period of time?
I’m not a player. I don’t usually get in the game while I know how to play. I
just can’t get away with it because the game always finds me. As I read in a
blog somewhere, it says:
(uknown/missing/forgotten)
This line totally hit me. I couldn’t find words any better to express myself
with it. I have not been ready to commit myself to only one person for three
and a half years. As one of my friends stated, it may be prejudicial to the
previous relationship. Maybe not. I don’t really know and I don’t give a fuck.
I have been in love a couple of times before. Figuratively, it is just not what
I need this time. I’m happy. I’m not searching for anything or anyone right
now. I’m in control and I go with the flow of after effects. What could I say?!
My life is a blast!!!
It’s a matter of choice. In my point of view, commitment is an obligation. It
is the state or an instance of being obligated or emotionally impelled to
another. A thing which I could totally not be ready for especially in times
like these when I am (or should I say was?!)
out in the dating scene, wild and free. For me, emotional attachment is like a
confinement, a restraint to my personal indulgences or a restriction to see
other people. It may sound single-minded that is why I find it really hard to
give up my freedom. I feel like it’s a deprivation of something that I really
want and enjoy. Now, I wouldn’t want that, would I?
What I need right now is to get through my personal disputes and learn to deal
with my complicated life. Solitude is very important to me and amidst my
emotional instability, it helps put my life in perspective.
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