X: Okay ba? Okay, recording. Umm.. ocge what happened is not supposed to happen.
T: Okay.
X: Okay? Mali. I don't like it. But it did. So diba nawitness mo naman kung ganung kahirap sakin matanggap yun. Umm.. to set the records straight, I don't want it to happen again.
X: uh, I've decided.. that we're not going to talk it.. talk about it ever again.
T: Mkay.
X: I will pretend that it never happened.
T: Okay.
X: Okay?
X: So since magaling naman ako jan diba? And hazy naman sakin yung i.., deed although I know that it happened eh. Hazy sakin pero an.. alamu yun, andun yung.. hinde, it happened. And it's fucked up. Gladys fucked up. Ganun yung naaalala ko. Although yun lang yung picture na naaalala ko. Yon. Uhmm.. so hindi ko sha pwedeng makalimutan but I've decided that we're going to pretend that it never happened.
T: Okay.
X: With terms and conditions shempre.. hahaha
X: It will never happen again. You have to promise me. You have to give me your word. kase I can't promise you.. kase you know me. I like ff.. fucking around. I like getting stoned. I like getting wasted. There are times that I like that because every time we're together.. alamu yun, may mga times eh.. na okay to. Perfect to. And I can't, we can't, all of us can't really predict what's gonna happen on that night. Diba?
And you can't just tell me na, 'o di iiwas ako pag may ganun, iiwasan kita. That's stupid eh. Kase we're friends, we're barkada eh.
T: cough
X: So it will.. diba one way or another you have to be there. Kahit marami tayo, meron, may times na darating na it will just be the two of us. Ako, a- kaya ko. Diba, kase wala sha sa utak ko e. Para sakin nga ang state of mind ko it never should have happened eh.
Eto Gladys, kung nasa ras, rasyonalidad ako, rational thinking.. I will never do it. It will never cross my mind and it's not, I can't do it. It's not a, ganna happen. So yung sinasabi kong the weight is on you, gets mo ba? Kase ikaw eh. Ikaw yuuung gumawa non. Kahit sabihin mong hindi mo naman gagawin yun kapagka hindi ko gusto eh that's stupid. That's fucked up. Kase kung rationale, nasa rationality ako, ayoko non!
T: Eh ako rin naman eh
X: I know! So we're both. Sabihin nating wala ka sa katinuan kaya nagawa mo yun but you did. Tapos na. Nagawa na eh. So.. ito nga yung terms and conditions ko. Cge, we're.. I'm going to pretend that it never happened. We're never gonna to talk about it again.
T: mkay.
X: This is going to be the last time that we're going to talk about it.
T: Okay.
X: Okay? Because it never happened eh. Yun terms and conditions ko, given that yun nga, you're gan give me your word that it's never ganna happen again.
T: Yes.
X: No matter what happens. Kahit sabihin ko sayong gusto ko. Naintindihan mo?
T: mkay.
X: Kase in the right state of mind. Xyra's right state of mind, she will never do that. Ever. It will never cross her mind. It's not even an option. Ibaa.. indi ako, iba ko eh.
T: Oh
X: Diba. Kilala mo ko. Diba? Ang gusto ko ngang i-sex yung pang asawa ko na e. So imposible talagang it will cross my mind. Naintindihan mo? It never will. And right now, again, I'm going to pretend, it never did. It will ne-eh, basta it will never happen again.
T: okay.
X: Kahit anung mangyari. Kahit maghubad ako sa harap mo Gladys!
T: okay.
X: Walang malisya sakin yun
T: okay.
X: okay? Alam ko sinasabi ko sayo to kase alam kong mahirap sayo yun. Diba?
T: giggles
X: hahaha hindi easy sayo yun
T: okay.
X: kase.. parang.. the fact that you did that.. sakin..
X: diba? Alamu na napag-usapan na natin to kagabi.
T: mkay.
X: So yung sinasabi ko sayo.. ang.. naalala ko pinag-usapan natin kagabi.. hindi mo gagawin yun pero pag sinabi kong gusto ko gagawin natin diba? Hahaha usapan natin. Ngayon, I'm setting the records straight. Kase there's no fucking way that I would want that.
T: okay.
T: edi okay.
X: Hindi gagawin, hindi mangyayari yun at hindi sha mangyayari kahit magkasama tayo sa kwarto, sabog ako, wasak ako, maghubad ako, walang mangyayari Gladys.
T: okay.
X: You have to give me your word.
T: owkay.
X: O yun yung terms and conditions ko. Diba yun lang? Simple lang diba? And we're never ganna talk about it ever again.
T: okay.
X: it never happened.
T: okay.
X: Ganun. Ganun yung mangyayare ah. Walang nangyare. Pero meron tayong inside joke all the time. Hahaha alamu na.. kung alamu pag binabanggit ko yun may inside joke na tayong dalawa. Iniisip ko nga kung..
T: Wag ka ng mag inside joke!
X: Hinde!
T: Bakit pa?!
X: Kase nakakatawa e! Hahaha nakakatawa diba? Nakakatawa naman talga eh. Pero ch.. naisip ko.. ocge we're never ganna to talk about it again. I'm going to pretend it never did. It never did. I can joke about it because it never happened. Ya understand?
T: ocge
X: The inside joke? It never happened e.
T: pero hindi ka naman nagjjoke ng ganun before e o bakit ngayon magjjoke ka na?
X: eh ito na yung repercussions ng nangyari
T: ocge.
X: nangyari e but it never happened diba? So we can joke about it because w.. wala namang nangyari e.
T: okay.
X: wasak ako e. Diba?
T: okay.
X: Pero, iniisip ko rin.. naisip ko kase gusto ko sabihin kina Johann hahahaha
T: putra.. siraulo? (inaudible)
X: bullshit laughs
X: kase nakakatawa diba? Pagka boys magegets nila yun e diba they do that e hahaha gets mo? Diba magkakawave length kayo alam nila yan pag aasarin ka nalang non pero yun nga basta so far ito yung deal ko. Never happened at walang mangyayari ulit. Okay?
T: okay.
X: Agree!
T: Agree!
X: End of recording.
X: Start of recording.
X: Anung tinarantadu kita tas ginago kita?
T: eh..
X: I never said that.
T: oo pero ganun yung.. ganun yung..
X: Wait lang. Again, we're recording for the second time kase merong mga realizations na nangyari after we've discussed about what happened the night of September 23 or 22 basta at Prime Residences. Kase narealize ko rin yun after a few days when we recorded something. Something that we've agreed na we're never ganna talk about it? Because it never happened. Now, we're talking about it. Kase, I noticed on that recording, hindi ka nagsalita. Tapos ngayon may sinasabi ka. So, you were saying..
T: Nagsorry, nagsosorry ako sayo diba
X: Dun sa, what happened
T: Sa, yes. Kase kaibigan kita and you're saying sakin na, "Gladys, in my state of mind, so you were saying that it's just me that did it. So, ako, parang inaano mo sakin na..
X: No, no, no, no. You misinterpret me. Dun sa sinabi ko sayo na: "In my state of mind, I will never do that." Hindi ko ibig sabihin na, ikaw, gusto mo! You understand? Kase nangyari na yun. I understand na pareho tayong wasak kase sa totoo lang
T: O kaya nga I feel sorry
X: Oonga. Hindi ko kase talaga
T: Kase kaibigan din kita
X: Yes.
T: Diba magkaibigan tayo. Ayoko rin naman na mawala ka sakin. Kaya nga sabi ko sayo non, ikaw pinagdedecide ko anu bang gusto mo? Gusto mo ba wala nalang maglayo nalang tayo hindi nalang tayo magkikita. Ikaw ang pinagdecide ko kase I can't decide at that moment. Right now nagsosorry ako because of what happened. Pero I feel sorry for what happened.
It's not.. kase.. it.. when you say you feel sorry o, you feel sorry. You feel sad of what happened. Get mo? Pero I'm not saying na I'm admitting it. It's my fault.
X: Oo. I understand. Pero yun nga kase yung sinasabi mo, yung words mo kanina sinasabi ko na ginago kita, hindi ko ginusto yun, na sinasabi ko pala na sinabi, na sinasabi ko sayo na, 'ginago mo ko Gladys, hindi ko gusto yun, ikaw lang may gusto non. Hindi yun yung, I don't mean that.
T: oo, na namisinterpret ko yung recording mo
X: oo, ang sinasabi ko.. what I meant.. kase diba uhm.. ikaw, tomboy ka Gladys, ako straight.
T: oo
X: Yung nangyayari pag lasing ka is in your subconscious mind.
T: okay
X: yung sinasabi ko sa recording, it will never cross my mind. It's not even in my subconscious mind. Kung mawawasak ako, hindi.. ako nga yung type na hindi ko nga naiisip makipagsex eh! Pag wasak ako, pag lasing ako. Diba nag-aagree ka nga dun sa recording. Kilala mo ko eh. Diba? Nai, naiisip mo ba na ganun akong tao. Kilala mo naman ako e.
T: Hindi ko alam kase that night ano pa ba yung mga pinag-uusapan natin
X: No, no, no, no, general to. General. Not on that night. Xyra. As herself. Pag lasing nalilibog? Pagkakakilala mo sakin.
T: Hindi ka naman nalalasing e. Kelan ka ba naglalalasing.
X: General to. Kunyari.. general, gets mo ba?
T: Onga kelan ka pag time na magkaka, nalasing ka
X: oo, ako ba yung ganung type. Kunyari yung wala ko sa sarili, ang gugustuhin ko bang, makipagsex. Gets mo ba?
T: I wouldn't know that because I've never seen you drunk.
X: Anu ka ba lagi akong lasing diba
T: Kelan?
X: Sumusuka nga ako jan sa fortuner. Ang dameng nangyayaring hindi ko naaalala, sa Opus.
T: Once lang yun diba sa Fortuner na kasama nyo ko na lasing na lasing ka
X: Yes
T: Every time nag-iinuman tayo sino bang lasing? Kame naman laging lasing ah.
X: Ocge, pag nalalasing ako, nakikita mo ba ko na ako yung maghahanap ng sex pag lasing?
T: Hinde kase ang nakikita ko lang naman sayo nagsususuka ka, basag ka
X: Yun nga. So parang ang point ko lang kase non. Um.. ka-sakin, general to e. I'm not pinpointing on you. I'm not pin pointing pero, generally, ang, ang tao pag nalalasing sila, dalawa yan, naghahanap sila ng violence or sex. Earthly desires or sex. Ganun din yung TREND NG LAHAT diba pag lasing. OKAY. Nag.. diba. Someone will sleep around. Someone will sleep with someone. Ganun yung trend! Pero ako hindi kase ako yung kagaya nila. Diba you do that. Si Angela. Ikaw. Everyone! Johann! Pam! Diba? That's the, that's the norm! Sa mundo natin? Ako ba yung one of them? Na pag lasing naghahanap ako ng
T: ocge bakit
X: Naiintindihan mo ba yung point ko?
T: oo naiintindihan ko.
X: I'm not saying na, "ikaw, ganun ka eh!" Pero ako. Eto ko Gladys. Hindi ko naiisip yun.
T: okay.
X: alamu yon.
T: Oo.
X: Kaya ko, pag pinapakinggan ko yung recording, naa-nag-aagree ka sakin sinabi ko yung part na yun. Kilala mo ko diba? Oo, you agreed. So, alamu. You know me. But I'm not saying na ikaw lang may gusto non kase hindi ako yun eh naintindihan mo? Wala kong sinabing ganon. Ang sinabi ko lang 'but it already happened e'.
T: oo.
X: Hindi mo rin alam. Sinabi mo rin kase 'Hindi ko rin, ako rin naman e!' Oonga andun na tayo. Pero it already happened. Gets mo?
T: oo.
X: So pero hindi kita sinisisi. Gets mo. Yun lang. Yung ako kilala mo ko. When I said it's not in my subconscious mind. Wala talga sha. Kung magkakaron man ako ng inclination, ngayon nga lang nangyari sakin yan diba. Inaadmit ko naman yan e out loud. Ngayon, I'm longing for sex. I miss having sex. Kase before, after my expe, after my relationship with Ace, I don't experience that. Yung namimiss ko yung sex. Now, I do.
T: oonga sinabi mo kagabi.
X: When after I experienced having sex with Marlon, with Daniel. Namimiss ko. I miss it. I can have sex with any, with boys, marami, pwede, pero yung vow ko eh. You know it. I want to do it.. my next sexual activity will be within marriage. So you think, pag nalasing ako, papasok sa utak ko yun? 'Ay makikipagsex ako!' Diba? Yun lang. Again, I'm not blaming you. I decided to record again kase nga dun sa first recording natin hindi ka nagsalita. And again, we ah.. both agreed that we're not ganna talk about it anymore but we are talking about it now.
T: okay.
X: So, kaya nirecord ko.
T: okay.
X: So anu yung..
T: last na to. Na pag-uusapan natin.
X: Anu yung sasabihin mo? Meron ka pang sasabihin?
T: Wala na. Ja, yun lang. Yung sinabi ko kanina na
X: So at least,
T: Nagsorry ako. Kase parang ano eh. Hindi ko alam kung ano pero ako, kaya ko na rin shang ano e. Get mo? Wala na.
X: oo
T: Pwede eh. Nakita mo naman tayo parang balik nalang tayo sa normal diba.
X: oo
T: Pero parang I felt na hindi ako nagsalita non parang
X: oo
T: I think I owe you that na kailangan
X: oo
T: magsalita naman ako diba
X: at least you feel the same way
T: kase wala e. Nakita mo naman non
X: naramdaman ko rin yun
T: hindi ko alam e. Hindi ko alam kung anung gagawin, anung iisipin ko. Hindi ko alam kung anung sasabihin ko.
X: oo
T: hindi ko alam.
X: Oo. Nakita ko rin naman na you got really rattled.
T: Yung sa recording ikaw lang nagsalita. Oo lang ako ng oo.
X: oo
T: Pero ngayon gusto kase magkaibigan tayo e diba parang.. and I, I feel sorry kung anu yung nangyari non eh, get mo?
X: mm
T: Dapat hindi naman nangyari yun kase friends tayo e
X: Totoo. And again sabi ko sayo masakit sakin yung nangyari
T: I know alam ko sinasabi mo na ikaw ganyan masakit ah ikaw yung, ikaw yung mahihirapan. Ganyan ganyan. Ganyan ganyan.
X: oo, oo
T: Ako, sabi ko diba ako yung mahihirapan. Ganyan ganyan. Naiintindihan ko pero shempre sa part mo alam ko yun. Alam ko na mahirap yun. Kaya nga hindi ko nga alam kung papanu kita iko- hindi ko alam kung papanu ko sasabihin sayo
X: Hindi. Masakit sakin yung nangyari, may nangyari satin na we did that although madali ko shang i-brush off coz I already gave my word na we're going to pretend that it never happened.
T: Ya! Ako rin naman e. Kaya ko na rin sha kalimutan e.
X: Kase, totoo e. Easy sha sakin. Hindi. Unang, in the first place, hindi ko sha mashado naaalala, ang naaalala ko lang yung picture na yon. That fucking image that you were doing something sakin. Yun lang! The rest, WALA! Hindi ko nga naaalalang nagkiss tayo, how we went there? Wala. Yun lang! I just know that something happened. MALI! At again, kung iisipin ko, kung tatanggapin kong may nangyari, hindi na kita magiging kaibigan kase hindi okay sakin yon. Alam mo yung vow ko. But something happened. So, to save you. Our friendship. Kase mahal kita Gladys e. I've decided na. Hindi. To pretend that nothing happened. And again. Another one. Another point. Pag inisip kong andaling gawin! If I did it with someone, ang, it's so easy for me to do it again. It will be so much easy for me to do it with you again. You know why? Kase hindi ka lalaki. Wala kong nararamdamang mabigat na feeling parang wala, BABAE! Okay lang yan! Nalilibog ako, gusto ko Gladys. Let's do it! But I'm not that type. I.. Xyra is not that person. Diba? I can be but Xyra is not that type of person e. But again, sinasabi ko posible diba? Babae ako and naiintindihan ko na ang libog, naintindihan mo ba?
T: Mm-mm
X: But again, hindi ko sha gustong gawin sa babae. We're so close sobrang parang komportable na tayo sa isa't isa. Alam ko na nga kung anung nararamdaman mo e nakikita palang kita. Kanina nga alam ko na agad e kung anung nararamdaman mo may pinagdadaanan ka na. Diba? Nakita lang kita non na ganun ka. Diba so parang ayoko mawala ka Gladys. I have to do this. I have to pretend that nothing happened.
T: okay
X: okay I just wanna let that out.
T: yun lang.
X: pero happy ako na nagsalita ka. Kase nasa isip ko yun eh pag pinapakinggan ko tong recording. Hindi sha nagsalita. Umoo lang sha ng umoo parang napilitan or siguro kase nahiya dahil may nangyari umoo nalang ng umoo. So okay nako na you gave your words. Yun lang.
T: okay.
X: Do you have any last message?
T: wala na.
X: K, end of recording.
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