Real To My Core

On my last entry, I have declared that I will be putting entries here as much as I can moving forward.  I remember setting an interval of like once or twice a week, as much as possible.

Okay.  I just read the last entry and I wrote it there.  I said "weekly" or "every other day if not daily".   It's been 16 days after my last entry.  If it's any consolation, there were several times I've thought of writing my thoughts here.  There were several random thoughts which made me feel the vibe of validating them by putting it here.  Let me see if I can remember them... (pause & think @ 9:37pm)

I zoned back in at 9:41pm and yes I remembered.  I think..

Pardon me for I do have the habit of tracking my time lapses whenever I am consciously doing it. 

I was thinking about people who would be part of this blog.  These people would be my family and friends who made a big impact in my life and are still making an impact on my life.  Practically, everyone I know can be part of this blog.  Anyone I know who can make an impact in my life significantly or not, in the past, present and in the future.  But I was more concerned on how they would feel in the event they would discover that they have become a main character in one of my entries here.  I'm concerned because these people in my mind won't look pretty in public.  They won't look pretty because it's their ugliest side I will popularize - their most awful and rotten side that they don't want anyone else to know.  Most importantly, it's the reality of my life.  I'm not creating this to demean anyone.  This is not some sort of revenge nor a way to attack anyone I know.  I'm not creating this to become popular.  This, again, is me to the core.  This is real talk.  It's my reality and not anyone else's.  The way I see it, if there is the slightest chance this blog would go viral, would hit any charts or go insanely popular, it's because this is the realest that anyone can be. 

It occurred to me that after I had that infamous car accident in 2009, several brain cells or nerves were lost.  Unfortunately, one of those vital nerves include the ones responsible for filtering emotion or lack thereof.  It has become very hard for me to lie.  I say things exactly as they are.  My comprehension on why one has to rephrase, sugarcoat or use a better scripting in order to sound more acceptable needs help.  This is also one way for me to define the word REAL.

No euphemisms. 

No conscious effort of making it sound better.

This is real as it can be.

Who knows that what we understand as "awful" here in our cosmos is actually the opposite in a different world?  We'll never know.

Bottomline is, I will be real to my core.  Nothing will be able to hold me back now.

Reactive People Versus Non-Reactive People. Who Wins?

I have been writing regularly but only every time I get the chance.  Our time is a luxury because sooner or later our time in the cosmos will end.  So every time I get the chance I write my own musings in my solitude.  I guess it helps me get by and it helps me remember things.  There are several things that happen to our lives and some are worth remembering.  Those beautiful and awful things I have to put on paper.  You see, I appreciate even the awful things in life.  Life is good and it feels good to be alive.  I love writing!  Literally, getting a pen and a paper and writing the letters one by one the traditional way.  I even write in print and never in cursive.  That's probably the reason why it took a while for me to put entries here.  

Since I went to US back in August, last year, it triggered the need to put my entries here instead of the notebooks or journals that I have to carry with me wherever I go.  It's very inconvenient and unnecessary when I know there is an easier way to be able to achieve the same goal with my laptop.  Though I'm not able to write using a pen and some notebook considering I have my own sentiments on writing the traditional way, it's easier to for me to put my thoughts into writing because I type faster than I write on paper.  Plus there will be no erasures because it's easy to just delete and edit.  

I have decided to make this one of my weekly, if not daily or every other day habit.  Who knows, this will become one of the top-selling books of the century.  I don't think it's impossible.  I actually think it has a big chance.  Everything written here is real to my core.  It's me, my private life, my disappearing memories, my personal thoughts and experiences which are not very common.  It's not everyday that you can get into a freaking accident and survive a vehicle which rolled over multiple times and fell into a 6 feet deep ditch.  Surviving and forgetting it happened for real is one thing but putting the pieces back together when you have no clue where to pick up the little pieces of you is another.  Imagine your life stopped and you literally have no idea why.  People around you telling you about your life and at the same time you realize that you really have no clue about why your life has to change.  Everyone I know think I'm not an ordinary person.  Majority of them actually think I'm crazy.  I know sometimes I think I'm crazy too but I have resigned to the fact that I am eccentric. Or not.  I would prefer to think I'm not crazy so let's just say I'm extra ordinary.  There are people who have resort to calling me names and I don't take offense not because what they're saying is not true.  Sometimes the reason is they make sense so I just don't say anything or try to be cryptic by laughing.  I have this habit of being non-responsive to several 'supposedly' VERY offensive remarks thrown at my face.  I become non-reactive.  I don't react because I really don't feel anything about it and so I can easily just shrug it off.  Sometimes I even laugh because I find it funny and true.  But I don't get people who choose to throw those offensive remarks at me and they lose it if I say something back.  They go crazy if they get those strong remarks even if it didn't come from me.

If you can throw those strong remarks to other people then you should be capable of receiving them too and not overreact about it.  I'm very straight-forward.  It's real talk with me and I appreciate the same thing.  I don't go crazy over comments thrown at me even if I don't deserve it.  I'm cool!  I say this all the time.  It will take more than your own monsters to move me.  Though you can always give it a try.

I Love My Sick Life

I have been through so much that some times I feel numb when people try to hurt me.  You know in my world, there are people who would really try to hurt you.  I don't know if it's a common thing but I have experienced it.  People who would deliberately try to offend you or make you feel or look bad exist!  I don't understand what kind of pleasure they get in doing so.  I find it really low and pathetic and I pity them.  The very moment I would realise they are that kind of people, I don't feel anything.  I don't feel scared.  I get annoyed knowing that I have to deal with it.  Not again! 

Trust me when I tell you I know how darkness feels but I never want to cut my life short.  I'm not scared of death.  If I would die tonight, I know that I will be safe.  I will go somewhere with light.  Finally! 

Maybe because I've endured being in the dark and being in pain for too long.  I'm not scared anymore.  I know I have forgiven.  I don't hate.  Maybe I do know how to hate the superficial things in life but I don't really hate.  Though I'm getting a lot of hating.  It feels so tiring.  I feel so tired.  Sometimes I just want to rest.  Maybe that's why I'm not scared to die.  Life has been hard for me every day.  I try to survive every day but it seems a very long and scary road.  It is scary because it doesn't end when the emotion you savour is not really pretty.  Sometimes, I feel I will never really get to my destination.  Somebody told me, it's the journey that really matters.  But what if this journey has been so exhausting?  People I look up to are changing and suddenly becoming monsters of these games I'm beginning to learn.  I'm tired of playing. 

I feel a human's vibe.  I see their soul.  I see their spirit and their emotion.  I feel numb and tired at the same time.  It's exhausting to look at lost souls and they think they don't need saving because to them, I need to be fixed.  I am a mess and it's either I kneel down before them and surrender to whatever or I was really born to go to hell. 

I'm tired of waiting.  I'm scared that there may be no end to this waiting game.  But I feel light.  Maybe because I know that I have done the right things.  I have loved truly and I have felt excruciating pain.  I endured it.  I'm just tired.  Sometimes hope wears off.  Maybe I've been waiting for so long and I'm still waiting until now. 

What's weird is, sometimes, I don't really know what I've been waiting for.  It's like I've wanted something so much but then I suddenly forget what is it really that I want?  Is it love?  Financial freedom?  Independence?  I've forgotten.  I thought I've been waiting for it so bad.  How can you forget what you really want?  Do you really want it or you're just pretending you want it just because..

Sometimes I feel that there is a certain charisma to being forgetful.  I forget all the blunders.  I forget the pain in an instant.  One moment it was heavy and painful then suddenly it's joyful bliss.  I switch to the next emotion and forget everything in a snap.  Sometimes I feel that's like an asset.  It's a big deal especially if it hits you straight to your core then suddenly it's gone.  You forget the pains but you remember the emotion.  Something sticks to you.  You would never know what stays with you but you know it stays with you and you remember just that.

Sometimes I get scared of forgetting.  Sometimes I don't feel like I'm still sane.  Sometimes my moments become surreal and sometimes I forget which one is reality and which one is imagination.  Which is which?  What is what?  I'm serious.  Never mind.  I won't remember anyway.

But writing helps me remember it.  Now I will remember this.

A Message I've Been Wanting To Send To You But I Guess I Will Never Do

Composed on December 30, 2015 on my Iphone

Ate, I need to tell you something.  I spent time in creating this message to you coz I don't want you to think I'm creating another issue.  Apparently, I have trouble in expressing myself to my family.

I've been wanting to go back to the time where in we talked over FB chat about mum.  I remember I was checked in at Maxim's with my friends and I have an interview in the morning at Solaire Resorts and Casino that time.  I think mum updated you with things that are happening with dad and her.  I think she had constantly been telling you things that are happening at home... with her, with dad, with the maids and with me.  You were reprimanding me based on how mum relayed her scenarios to you.  So that basically meant you were reprimanding me about everything!  The reason I say that is because if you ask me, mum is against everything about me.  She is against my diet, the food I make, things I buy even if it's from my own money, things I do and things I don't do.  I got so upset with you and we argued the whole night until the next morning when we both woke up.  The next day, when I got home after my interview, I told dad everything.  I told him how upset I was with things you said.  You said so many awful things about me and one that impacted me the most was when you said something like: "Panu ka makakakuha ng trabaho kung ganyan ka?!"

Dad just told me: "Wag mo na intindihin ate mo, hindi nya alam ang nangyayari kase ang mommy mo ang kausap nya."

And then when we checked our thread, wala ka naman palang sinabing ganun.  Now why am I bringing this up? It happened August 10, 2015 to be exact.  So it's been like 4 months ago.  I am actually having trouble in trying to find a way to get my message across.  So please do me a favor and listen to what I want to tell you.  I want to tell you this because I'm scared.  And I think the first people who should know about this is my family.  Though my family would be the last people I would disclose this to because it's VERY hard to deal with my family.  Everything I say or do practically leads to trouble, mayhem, gulo, issue, negativity and the like.  Why would I want that?  I don't know why I'm that way.  It's really hard for me to positive if I'm labelled negative all the time and according to you, it's because of how I am talaga.  And if I try to defend myself, it will look like I'm trying to justify "evil" which is me figuratively speaking.

Anyways, that time, here's the real deal.  That's what I remembered that you said.  It was evident in our thread that you never said it.  But why was it on my mind?

Of course everyone would think I just created another issue so dad will back me up again and he will start to reprimand everyone else except me.  I created a story.  I invented that you said those nasty things to me so I will gain his sympathy?

Now why would I do that?  I remember being so upset with things that you told me.  But why would I invent things you said which you never really did?  What would be my motive?  What will I get from it?

Do you think I want you and dad to fight?

Will I gain everyone's sympathy if I do that?

Do you think I would have thought that it would make me feel better if I made dad think you really said those things to me?

No. I don't want you and dad to fight.

No, I'm not trying to get anyone's sympathy because I know that I'm not going to get sympathy out of creating issues and inventing things.

No, I wouldn't and would NEVER make up things that never really happened because I know that would make me look really stupid.  If you don't know yet, dad values his relationship with you.  He always sets you as an example to me.  Lague nya sinasabi: "Tingnan mo ang ate mo, ang laki ng transformation.  Kaya mo rin yan.  Sana maging ganun ka din."

So why would I want to ruin your image to our dad?  Wala naman akong makukuha dun kundi gulo lang.  And I know na magagalit lang kayo lalu sakin if malaman nyo na "nag-imbento" lang ako.

Pero ate I also asked myself, baket yun yung naaalala ko if hindi naman talaga sha nangyari?  You never said anything like that at all.  But why did I think or why did I remember you saying that?  I actually asked my neurologist that question.  "Doc, I forget almost everything but why do I remember things that never really happened?"  Because that's not the first time it happened.  I've encountered similar things several times.  It's similar in a way that I remember doing something or I remember something happening in a particular way but in reality, nothing close to what I remembered actually happened.

So aside from my ailment that I forget almost everything and I never remember, I have another ailment which I am able to remember things which never really happened?

It is a question that I really want to find an answer to.  Baket nangyari yun?  How come that's how I remembered it happening?  If you never really said it then why did I think you said it?

Why am I telling you this now?

Because I feel that I owe you an apology.  I am actually confused.  I don't want to apologize because if I do, you may think I did it on purpose.  If I say sorry, it's like I'm admitting that I did something wrong.  I may have done something wrong but please keep in mind that I did not make up things or I never really wanted to demean you to our dad.  I want you to know that creating an issue between you and dad is the last thing I want to do because I know how much he values you and the relationship he has with you.  He is actually scared of you because he doesn't want things between you to change.  That's how he cherishes you.  So why would I want to ruin that?

I've been wanting to bring this up again with you because I want you to know that I feel sorry about what I did (unintentionally).  Ang hirap.  I want you to know that I did not invent anything.  It's really how I remembered it.  I also asked myself why I remember something that never really happened?  That is very disturbing.  

There are several disturbing things that are happening to me that I've already considered part of my mundane rut.  Sometimes I think it's a curse because of how much it makes me suffer in ways I can not put into words.  Disturbing, excruciating, torturous, blissful.. Whatever term you use to define it, I just have to deal with it on my own in ways I know.

A Random Letter To Abby in 2006

Hand written on a forgotten date in the year 2006 on a blank page of a notebook...

Dear abby, hi! nu gawa mu jan? bkt di ka namamansin chaka bkt ang sungit mo ata? galit ka pa buh? di nga yung totoo? Gusto mo ba mag-usap? Neweiz, bkt lng di ka makulit ngayon? Or my episode 16 na naman buh kayo ni tibo. Oh! Aask ku lang. Wag mu papabasa to kht kanino. This is confidential matter. Un lang ask ko lang anu buh nangyayari na?

Punta tayu greenhills tomorrow ha? Tas ung sa Sat, sure na buh kayo? Badtrip kc P5,600 lang salary ko noh kaya I feel hesitant to go. Dami ko pa bills! ung globeko di ko pa bayad. They will cut my line na. Tas ung credit cardsss pa. hehe! Mahirap maraming debts. Pero gusto ko punta dun kc minsan lang tumapat ng sat ang big fish production chka mga sikat DJ's naun. Sayang! Pero punta ko dun sa vintage bazaar. Kakapagod mgsulat.

Lamu kc real reason why I wrote you a letter coz I never thought na up to now masama pa din loob mu sa bet. Lamu past naun noh chaka trip lang un, nagagaguhan lang kme non. Pero Love na Love ka naman nyan ni tibo. O tapon mo na tong letter na to after kc bka makita ni Pam. chaka PLEASE lang wag mo na pabasa ky tibo or david or to anybody! ky emman pde...

O skip lines na ha! Kapagod eh! chaka lamu gs2 ko lang sabihin sumama talga loob ko nung time na ngtxt ako my halo narin amats un pero kc feeling ko talga my tinatago kyo skn. kc sabi mo dampa kyo eh tas ngmotmot pa pala kyo. Lamu in all honesty, ok lang talga un. na nde nyo ko nisama kc nga diba date nyu dapat. wala naman skn un. chka kht txt nyu pa ko nun di ako makakasama. kaso nainis lang ko kc pgdating nyo ask ko david san kyo galing tas sbi ba nmn "secret!" kakainis! kakainis kya un! tas pde mu nmn sbhn na ngmotmot kyo ok lng nmn di mu pa cnbi. pero wala naun ok na! Tas napraning lang ako kc diba nga before nung motmot, nung previous sat ung ni-interrogoate nyo pala stan. di ko alam tas di nyo sinabi. so un. napraning lang ako. pero wla naun.

So panget na sulat ko kc masakit na kamay ko. 3 min nalang in na. if you wanna talk to me about sumtin, go ahead. I'm ur friend & Im tellin you, I'll be d only one who'll keep it real downright or upright whatever. Hope u guys do the same. Love ya'll >Xyra

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The delectation I find in reading old letters  unparalleled. I travel back in time because it relives obsolete memories.  It makes you reimagine your life and you realize how far you've gone from where you came from. Life is good. 

Xyra Has A Point But She Forgot What It Was!

Sorry it took so long, I've been busy.

But I told you I'mah transcribe it. Still did!

There's no denying. I miss you guys! =,(

October 24, 2014 (Friday morning): And Xyra’s Point Is…
(9 minutes and 14 seconds clip)

Martinni :    May kwento ko sayo
Xyra :         Na mapapahiya ka sakin.. ocge cge cge.. Kelan yung trip nyo to Eskaya in Bohol? When?
Martinni :    Last  week of January
Xyra :         Last week of January.. uhmm.. What are the dates? 4 days? 3 nights? What?
Martinni :    No. 3 Days, 2 nights.

Xyra :         3 days, 2 nights.. Do you have like a.. a date.. plotted date?
Martinni :    Not yet but it’s the 3rd.. last week of January to first week of February.
Xyra  :         Okay, this is the calendar.
Ecca :        (giggles..)
Xyra :         Okay so it could be January 30, 31, Feb.. Feb 1, 2.. 4 days?
Martinni :    Yes. 3 days 2 nights.
Xyra :         Ok. Or.. or 3 days 2 nights.. Or, or could be Feb 7, 8, 9.. Correct?
Martinni :    Or it could be 6, 7, 8
Xyra :         Or 6, 7, 8. Okay.
Xyra :         So.. you’re going to.. tentative the dates but are you sure about the trip?
Martinni :    Yes
Xyra :         100%?
Martinni :    It will happen.
Xyra :         Yes. It will happen. Uhmm.. you’re.. How are you planning to go to Bohol?
Martinni :    Plane
Xyra :         Plane. Are you having.. Do you have the idea that there’s a possibility that you won’t take the plane?
Xyra :         No?
Martinni :    It’s not an option.
Xyra :         Okay.
Martinni :    Not taking a plane is not an option.
Xyra :         Okay. So how much is your budget for the plane ticket?
Martinni :    I don’t care about the budget.. But I’ll get it for 5k each.
Xyra :         5k each? 5k each roundtrip?
Martinni :    No.
Xyra :         5k each?
Martinni:     One way.
Xyra :         One way.
Ecca :        Ang mahal!
Xyra :         Uhmm..uhmm.. That’s just the two of you, the two of you right?
Martinni :    Yeah
Xyra :         5k one way for the two of you?
Martinni :    Yes.
Xyra :         So that’s gonna be 20k. Right?
Martinni :    Right.
Xyra :         Okay. So what’s your plan? You’re gonna go there. You’re willing to purchase ticket for 5k, like 10k round trip.
Martinni :    Yes.
Xyra :         To Cebu, Bohol, right?
Martinni :    Including tour packages.
Xyra :         No! I was just asking about the plane alone. Just the plane.
Martinni :    Oh yeah, roughly 5k back and forth.
Xyra :         5k back and forth. Ang gulo kausap eh!
Ecca :        (laughs)
Xyra :         Ayan naka-record
Martinni :    No.. blah blah blah
Ecca :        hahahaha
Xyra :         Diba? Pwede natin i-assess toh! Later!
Ecca :        bwahahaha
Xyra :         We have an evidence. Sabi nya kanina diba one way 5k each. Ngayon 5k
Martinni :    Go back. Go back.
Xyra :         Now, it’s 5k round trip na.
Martinni :    Yes.
Xyra :         Okay so that’s your budget?
Martinni :    Yes.
Xyra :         Roundtrip for the airfare only 5k. So that’s your like.. max?
Martinni :    Yes.
Xyra :         How much is your minimum?
Martinni :    (long pause) No minimum. Just the average. That’s how much I’ll get it
Xyra :         Okay. 5k. Max? 5k or more? Max?
Martinni :    Yeah. It can be 8k. Max
Xyra :         And.. so you have no say about the plane ticket eh parang kase it’s okay with you to spend 8k
Martinni :    5 to 8k
Xyra :         5 to 8k. Okay. (laughs)
Martinni :    Yeah. So what’s your point now?
Xyra :         Nothing!
Ecca and Xyra laughing
Martinni :    Why are you even recording it?
Xyra :         Actually, I have a point. But I forgot! Hahaha
Martinni and Ecca laughing
Xyra :         I forgot. Kase.. niko-confuse mo yung train of thoughts ko. Ang gulo gulo. Nawala yung utak ko kanina
Martinni :    Who’s the one asking..
Xyra :         May point ako
Martinni :    You’re the one asking questions.
Xyra :         Kase nga may point ako. I forgot!
Martinni :    Who’s the one asking questions?
Xyra :         Ang tagal tagal kase. Nakakainis eh. Ilang minutes na toh. 3 minutes and umm.. actually onte palang basta meron akong point kaso nalimutan ko talga promise! Sandali isipin ko muna..
Ecca :        So magbabayad ka na ng parking.
Xyra :         Oo. Given na yun eh. How much buh for 2 hours?
Martinni :    I don’t know. In.. In Valero it was, 30?
Xyra :         Wait lang ah. Kase gusto kong tapusin tong paggupit ng nails ko haha pagnatapos ko toh alis na tayo ah?
Martinni :    Why are you still recording it?
Xyra :         Kase.. malay mo lumabas yung point ko maalala ko ulit.
Ecca :        hahahaha
Xyra :         At least ni-record natin daba? Kase nakakainis yun eh. Alamu yung nasa utak mo sha tapos nawala. Nakakainis kaya yun! Yung tipong.. kaya mo nga.. that’s the reason why you started the conversation because you have a point but the thing is, you forgot!
Martinni :    Try to remember it instead of cutting your nails.
Xyra :         Actually, I have it in my mind but I kina like.. actually..
Martinni :    You realized it..
Xyra :         Ah.. sandali ah.. Kase diba why did I start the conversation kase.. sakin kase sa isang trip. Eto cge may point nako. Sa isang trip, very.. Kase diba samin, sa group namin, sa barkada namin diba mahilig kame lumabas?
Ecca :        yeah
Xyra :         Lague kame out of town ng out of town, out of the country.. So anu yung trabaho ko? Ako ang nagbbook ng tickets.
Martinni :    Right!
Xyra :         Okay. So ngayon. Ano ang goal sa trip? Pag matalino ka kase at kung talagang traveler ka, yan ang unang una mong gagawin. You will book the ticket. Okay?
Martinni :    Bat di mo nalang ituro sakin? This should be the..
Xyra :         Kase I was thinking you are smart enough to know that but fuck it! You’re a fucking moron! You’re a bastard!
Martinni :    That’s why I’m a guy. Coz I..
Xyra :         No. It doesn’t matter. Baket si Ymmon? Alam nya yun. Lalake yun ah. Baket si Stan?! Yun ang.. alam yan ng mga traveler. Kung traveler ka, alamu yan! Makakakuha ka putangina dalawang daan round trip!
Martinni :    Weh!
Ecca :        Oo nga!
Martinni :    Oh yeah the piso fares
Xyra :         Pero.. alam ko na why I stopped
Martinni :    I never paid for it eh. I never..
Xyra :         Why I stopped pointing out my point. I know. I realize it. You know why? Because money is not an object for you pala eh. Sakin mabigat yung 5k? Roundtrip? Its.. mabigat yun!
Martinni :    No. Hindi. Wala kase akong idea eh. You’re the one who’s going..
Xyra :         But still!
Martinni :    No, remember when you say..
Xyra :         No, no, no.. sabihin natin wala kang idea BUT you know value for money.
Martinni :    Yeah!
Xyra :         O, diba?! You know about money. Kumikita ka. You need money. So alam mo na kung mahal mashado or diba. Basically, you know the ethics.
Martinni :    Kaso si Zarmin ang nagpplan nyan eh.
Xyra :         But still.. o ngayon, at least now I’m telling you. Mali. Ngayon palang magbook ka na!
Martinni :    Allright, that’s..
Xyra :         Kase patagalin, paabutin mo yan November, December, mas mataas yung ticket mo kaya ngayon palang magbook ka na.
Martinni :    Eh bat di mo nalang sabihin sakin yan from the onset.
Xyra :         (laughing) Ewan ko sayo. Nag-usap tayo for 6 minutes sana merong point tong pagrerecord ko diba.
Ecca :        Pakinggan ulit natin yan bukas
Xyra :         Nakakainis. Diba parang.. hyped pa kameng dalawa mag-argue diba magdedebate kame putangina wala pala kameng pinaglalaban pareho hayop ka. Wala kang sense kausap eh.
Martinni :    Alamu.. Hindi. Walang sense yang binring up mo eh.
Xyra :         hahaha.. kase bat walang sense? Ewan ko sayo.
Martinni :    Wala ka naman palang kwenta eh
Xyra :         haha.. diba wala shang sense kausap? Yung tipong nakakapagod nalang makipag-argue sakanya.
Ecca :        hihihihi
Xyra :         Parang shit.
Martinni :    Mas tama naman ah.. bat..
Ecca :        Di mo pa na-try yun? Yung ano..
Martinni :    I don’t. Natry.. Nakwento.. Nasabi na sakin.. pero hindi naman ako nagpplano
Xyra :         Si Zarmin, alam nya yan?
Martinni :    Oo naman. I think so.
Xyra :         Oh, dapat.. pero eto kase yun, sinusurprise mo si Zarmin so wala shang idea about that, right? So you should be booking your tickets na!
Martinni :    No ang surprise ko sakanya, dito tayo pupunta.
Xyra :         You should be booking the ticket kung sigurado ka jan. Sabi mo 100 anu.. out of 100% ganu ka kasigurado na magbo.. tutuloy mo yan?
Martinni :    100%
Xyra :         Kahet 5 thousand ticket nyo?
Martinni :    Ngayon hindi na, sabi mo 200 nalang!
Xyra :         hahahaha.. oh my gosh so ngayon nya lang nakuha?! May chance pa kase maaga pa eh. You can still get cheap rates.
Martinni :    Okay.
Xyra :         Yung mga lumalabas sa promo ngayon January.. first quarter
Martinni :    Alamu dapat ikaw ang magbook nyan
Xyra :         Parang ganun nga yung mangyayari diba
Martinni :    Bat di mo nalang sinabi sakin: “Martinni ganito nalang, ganito nalang, tutulungan kita.”
Ecca :        hahahaha
Xyra :         I charge!
Ecca :        (laughing pig)
Xyra :         Pag di ako kasama sa trip
Ecca :        (laughing pig again)
Xyra :         Ginagawa ko lang yan pag.. if I’m part of the trip noh!
Ecca :        hahahaha
Xyra :         Since I’m not..
Ecca and Xyra laughing evilly
Xyra :         Sabi ko naman sayo diba gusto ko sumama..
Ecca :        Sumama ka sakanila
Xyra :         Eskaya yun! I’ve tried it I swear. Ang sarap! Papakita ko sayo yung pictures ko dun
Ecca :        Ilan kayo? Kayong 3?
Martinni :    Kameng 2 lang
Ecca :        Ah kayong 2 lang?
Xyra :         Oo, kase parang..
Ecca :        Ah hindi kasama si Phoebe.
Martinni :    We need it.
Xyra :         Sama tayo!!! Isipin mo naman sa Eskaya!
Martinni :    Yung anak ko hindi ko kasama?
(Xyra and Ecca laughing..)
Xyra :         Ang saya! Ang saya netong recording na toh. Anu ngayon?
Martinni :    Ah, you’re still recording it.
Xyra :         Today is Friday morning. Thursday after shift. End of recording.

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