Wednesday, August 8, 2012

This Is How I Will Pen My Feasibility Write-up, TODAY


          Intermingling the classic and the modern, the austere and the adorned and the moderate and the bold in the different characters of table setting, we have created a fusion which entices the patrons of the delicate blend of East and West. We have prepared a menu that we have painstakingly studied and tested to create our masterpiece. Through collection of ingredients from sporadic parts of the western world and then blending it with the precious east, we brought Asian authenticity to a whole new level. The cuisine being more on the Asian origin with a Western twist ingeniously made it apt to international palate.

          On the dining table, we used delicate white square plates as Western glassware on wooden placemats as Asian place setting. On the centerpiece, we used pebbles and rocks placed on a wide vase expressing a sense of tranquility symbolizing the simplicity of Asian living. Putting flowers and a candle enhances the beauty and elegance of our centerpiece. It rests on an abaca mat with the playful colors of blue, red and orange. We blended different shades of brown on our menu card, table napkins and chair skirts from dark copper brown to light cream with the audacious colors of orange, blue and red. Intermixing austere colors with audacious ones spontaneously fuses together Eastern and Western fashion. The colors of blue, red and orange represent the immense diversity of Asian culture and tradition and at the same time, the bold and the adorned art and spirit of the West.

          On the wine table, we have set a simple vase and a Japanese lamp that manifests the subtle grace of Eastern art and putting a Western-inspired flower as decoration together with the wine and the tea as the meal-ender.

          Inspired by the tradition and culture of the East, the elements of nature come to life with a sophisticated Western twist.


Xyra
8/8/2012

A Feasibility Write-up Back in 2003

Ingenious Art and Cuisine in the Unity of East and West

     Expressing the classic and the modern, the austere and the adorned, the moderate and the bold, in the different features of table setting, we have created a fusion that is appealing to those who appreciate and enjoy the delicate blend of East and West. We have prepared a creative menu that we have painstakingly studied, collecting ideas from the sporadic parts of the Western world, blending it with the precious East defining vividly on Asian authenticity. As you can see, the cuisine is more on Asian origin but giving it a Western touch and mixing the flavors of the East and West completes the cuisine and makes it apt to the international palate.

     On the dining table, we used delicate white square plates with the wooden place mat to introduce a Western attitude on Asian fashion. On the centerpiece, we used pebbles and rocks placed in on elegant wide bringing out a sense of tranquility and simplicity of Asian living. Putting flowers and a candle enhances the beauty and elegance. It rests on an abaca mat with the playful colors of blue, red and orange and using the colors of the different shades of brown on our menu card, table napkins and on the chair skirts from dark copper brown to light cream, and with the audacious colors of orange, blue and red. Playing with austere colors with audacious ones expresses our spontaneity in fusin Eastern and Western style. The colors of blue, red and orange represent the immense diversity of Asian culture and tradition and also the bold and the adorned art and spirit of the West.

     On the wine table, we have set a simple vase and a Japanese lamp that manifests subtle grace of Eastern art and putting a Western-inspired flower as decoration together with the wine and the tea as the meal-ender.

     Inspired by Japanese tradition and culture, the elements of nature come to life with a Western approach of sophistication.


written in Junior year 2003 (1st semester), for our Resort Spa Feasibility Gallery in UST


There Has Been Mayhem In My Brain Ever Since

 An excerpt to a letter I wrote in highschool:

Retreat '00
To whom it may concern: 

-> Naiinis talga ko sanyo kaya ang weird ko nung Tuesday. Pero hindi ko masasabi sanyo kung bakit ako naiinis non kc naguguluhan pa ako chka di ko alam kung bat ako inis kc diba la naman kayong ginagawa sakin na masama pero sobrang inis na talga ako na di ko maexplain. Ayoko kayong awayin pero nasobrahan na talga ako na kaylangan nang mailabas. Naisip ko masmaganda kung di ko nalang muna kayo papansinin.

-> So, since na eto na, sasabihin ko na kc nafigure-out ko na kung bakit ako inis. Inis ako kc...

-> I'm not mad at you after all. Inis ako dun sa nangyayari pero hindi sanyo. Now I understand why I'm hesitating to tell you that I'm mad. Because I'm really confused. Hindi pala ako galit sanyo pero dun sa nangyayari kase it's damn fucking me up! Pero inis din ako sanyo ng onte siguro... ewan ko!  

-> So, yun lang yon... Did I answer your questions? Sorry kung napaaga ang retreat letter ko dahil eto na yon. Sorry rin kung naging nasty ako sanyo nung Tuesday lalo na kay Ross. Sorry talga! Didn't mean to do that.


Nick Carter

So... it's been a while since I've been messed up this way. 
Go figure.

Dad's Retreat Letter: 1st Year Highschool (1998)

December 14, 1998

Dear Yvelle,

         We are very glad that you will undertake your Holy Retreat in Cavite. This can provide you the opportunity to have a self-examination and retrospect of your real self. We earnestly hope that the conduciveness of the place  and the call of the time will be of great help for you to know more of yourself and know more Jesus.

          You know Yvelle, you have been a problem child to us and personally I had difficulties in making you realize who you are as a daughter, as a younger sister to your Ate Yvette, as an elder sister to your younger sister Kakay and younger brother Dodoy. I have a hard time making you realize who you are as a student, as a growing child and as a citizen. More often than not I have to control myself in dealing with you otherwise I maybe able to hurt you physically which happened in some instances. I regret it time and again and hoping that it may change you. But seemingly it did not work. I have to admit I failed to correct you at least to make you realize your shortcomings. It's a surrender and did not surprise that your mom has the same notion with mine. But this not the end of the fight. There is still light at the end of the tunnel. God is not sleeping and He can provide the way. I just hope that this time you start to know yourself and know more Jesus who give us life and bread.

          Yvelle, we know that you have so many qualities in yourself and God is so kind to give them to you. You should reciprocate it by being nice, loving and caring to your sisters and brother and respectful to your mom and to me. We love you very much the reason why we want you to change your attitude. In fact you are my favorite and very important to me. My only consolation is for you to be a good girl, should be very friendly to everybody in the household, talk and speak softly with love and care and be an extrovert and sociable lady. These qualities can make you more beautiful and intelligent and I'm 100% sure that in this retreat of yours and with our support and understanding you will be a brand new Yvelle tomorrow. The Yvelle my lovely daughter that all of us in the family can be proud of. A new image of hope and good qualities and wisdom. A new Yvelle who speak so softly and with care and seldom quarrel with anyone.

          God is always with you and with our prayers and care you will truly make it.

We love you Yvelle,
Daddy and Mommy

Dad's Retreat Letter: 7th Grade (1997)

September 29, 1997


Dearest Yvelle,

          I really thanked the Lord and also your school administration for making things happen - your retreat.  

          Retreat in essence is a time to examine one's self, a time to reflect on your acts and words, your deeds and outlook and your values and discretion if it were indeed in accordance with God's teaching, the dictate of our Christian faith and the training of your parents - our expectations from you. You will understand then why God or spiritual is the center of your activities and why is it away from the hustle of a busy city life and material world. 

          You need to have a break on your routine for you to have a "focus" on yourself. You have to realize that as a creature of God, as our daughter, as a sister, as a student and as a citizen of the community you have a role to play in what we call the real drama of life. In all these undertakings and relationship mentioned we want and expect you to be a good good girl simply because we really love you.

          My daughter, please take this opportunity to once again examine yourself honestly if you were indeed a good girl and if not then its time to resolve and commit to yourself to make this happen and we would be very very happy. Equally important is your openness to accept your shortcomings and deficiencies after all it is not late yet. In fact it is just the beginning and you are just starting to grow and now is the time to start.

          Honestly, I am very happy for you with the good showing and improvement you did in your academic ratings. I would be very happy however if you reach-out with your sisters -respect  to your elder and have affection, care and understanding to your younger ones.

          You have to open your heart and display warm regards to your Ate Yvette. You have to respect her as your elder and next to us in the same manner that we want you to be respected by Dodoy and Kakay. Try to be friendly to your Ate Yvette. Try to dialogue her and show some concern and great respect after all you are younger than her. Treat her as your mentor, your barkada and be amiable to her and I'm sure she would do the same and even to more because good things and love are contagious and the credit is on you because you started it all. Love begets love and conversely if you harbor hate and resentment it will reproduce and multiply more hate and trouble and harmony can never be attained in our family. Harmony in our family is my inspiration and motivation to work hard and earn more for all of you.

          Also, be understanding to the ways of Kakay and Dodoy for they are still young. We are around anyway to guide them and teach them little by little the way we did to you before. Show some affection and care for them because they love you too and will respect you wholeheartedly and will do more with your initiative.

          Be happy and love the things you do. Always smile especially with people around whom they are as a way of thinking the Lord and your parents for giving you - a beautiful life. You have to be friendly to all and improve your P.R (public relations and human dealings)

          Finally, we wish to let you know that we expect so much from you and out of your retreat a new Yvelle will come out. All of this simply, because we love you always.

Love
Daddy and Mommy

My Dad's Retreat Letter: 6th Grade (1996)

September 25, 1996

Dear Yvelle,

          I'm glad that your school always schedule an annual retreat. It should be given much importance because it is a rare moment where one could escape for a while from a hectic daily routine to have a full time of maybe one day or two, a time for self-examination.
    
          This is part of your training and group dynamics exposure, spiritual renewal and growing up for soon you will be high school. Please try to realize now that personality and behavior are the most important ingredients that makes an external person while fear in God, respect for the parents and elder sister or brother or relatives is what will make up for your internal person. Retreat would mean looking back, going back, reviewing your past actions and behavior so that when you move again or starting tomorrow you would begin to throw away wrong attitude and bad habits and start a new life with good habits, improved personality and "pakikisama" not only to us, your parents but likewise to your elder sister Yvette, sister Kakay and brother Dodoy. Yvelle you are now grown up and should behave like a grown up child who is disciplined, refined, morally upright, good natured, pleasant personality and amiable to all, good public relations. You should be God fearing and give respect to parents, elder sister and old relatives and teachers. Always practice the golden rule where "you do unto others what would you like others would o unto you." Don't be rough or act like rascals. Maintain self-respect and self-restraint. Give due respect to your Ate Yvette so that your younger breed (unreadable) would do the same to you. Yvette will be held liable for her failure but would not give you an excuse to make bastos or misbehave with her. Never fight back because if you do so as if you did that to us or there will be always trouble in our family and I feel sick.

          Your key to success is preparations, hard-work and seek God's guidance. Rise up again in case you stumble down and show to the world that you can make it and be a winner too in due time. Don't despair and if you failed never have that self-pity and helpless feeling. Always pray to God Jesus Christ that He will help you in your problem day and night. Show that you are strong, talented and can face the challenges of life. Always be jolly that you live in this world and in our bossoms (unreadable). With these in your heart and mind I'm sure you will be somebody and very successful someday. Follow what I want you to do and you will cherish the blessings of hard work and the kindness of God up high.

          So long and good luck! Have a successful retreat.


Love,
Daddy and Mommy

A Poem For Me By Norman Granados Back In College


bakit di ka nila maunawaan?
Ano ba ang 'yon pagkukulang?
bakit ka nila ginaganyan?

'di ko maintindihan
Pati ako nahihirapan
'pag nakikita ko ang inyong kalagayan

'di kita kinakaawaan
'di din kita kinakampihan
Gusto ko lang, kayo'y magkaayusan

ikaw ay labis na nasasaktan
Sila 'man siguro'y di nasisiyahan
Pero, ano ba ang pinagmulan?

'di kase tayo nakakapagkwentuhan
Ayaw din kitang umiyak na naman
Pero, gusto kitang tulungan

'wag mong isipin na ikay' nawalan,
dahil sila ang tunay na nawalan,
Ng tapat na kaibigan.

'di pa 'to ang katapusan
Marami ka pang maaasahan
Kami din ay iyong kaibigan.

Tama na ang dramahan
masyado nang marami ang naapektuhan
Tanggapin na lang natin ang katotohanan

'di na mababalik ang nakaraan
Ang mahalaga ay ang kasalukuyan
At alam mo ang 'yong pinaglalaban

Ginusto nila yan,
'di ba masaya ka din naman?
isang ngiti naman jan!
(cute/ugly/funny drawing of a cheer dancer with pompom haha)

End.

-Norman Granados
4H2

written by Norman in 2004 or 2005

When my teacher in highschool asked me to create a letter of what I want to be when I grow up

Here was what I wrote:

November 22, 2000

Dear... imaginary friend,

           eio! zup? drop by to say hi! Actually, I really got I mean I ain't got nuthin' to say to u! My goddamn teacher wanted me to write sumtin 'bout my life to a person whom I would wanna toss my shit out. U know whut I'm sayin'? Tell u honestly, I have no idea I mean I ain't havin no idea 'bout wut the fuck I'm talkin 'bout hir. Ok, letz get downa business... my teacher told us to write about my future self. Mhan, I'm so wasted!!! I'm tellin u ryt now, I really want to be a performing artist! I want to be rappin my ass out on stage like Eminem or Lil' bow wow or Snoop or Layz or whoever big black assed on the loose. I dunno, tell, I mean you can say I'm havin' a loose screw or sumtin but that's my fantasy ya'll. If you ask me, what I'mah do if eva I were given a chance to control my destiny. I'mah twist every corner of it & givit wut it yearns to be. A mutherfuckin, asswhoopin' rapper I'll make it as!

           Fuck ya'll who flay up on me! I don't care wachathink! But honestly, I'm quick to change mah mind. It would take you only 1 fuckin minute to make me change my mind because that's how soft I am. But I'm one offensive nasty bitch right now & I'mah tell you, ur gonna die honky if you flay-up on my fantasy as of now. In mah time, mah place, mah plans, I'm da mutherfuckin boss round here! & know were ur at!

          Got it!

rackafellaya'll
YveZ

Yes, I know. I hear you. 
I may have some serious issues back then. 
But admit it, it's funny reading this now, huh?! 
 

Letters from Mean Girls in 2006

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12-18-06
Hi Kulot,
Musta na? I was here! hehe.... dito me sa chair mo kasi wala ka anyway thank you so much bout last nyt ha... I really appreciate what you did thank you for all the advice... hope I can apply it to my situation. Mahirap talaga but I need to... tnx ulit

miss you!
(unknown)
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12/22/2006
HI XYRA,
I HOPE OK KA NA. BAYAAN MO SELOS LANG YAN, O BAKA NAMAN EPEKTO LANG NG PILLS MO YAN.
TAKE CARE LOVE LOTS
EMILY
P.S. ISA LANG NAMAN ANG DAHILAN CIA UN!
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12/25/06 16:12
XYRA,
MERRY CHRISTMAS... & A HAPPY NEW YEAR!


THANKS FOR EVERYTHING AND FOR BEING A TRUE FRIEND! SORRY IF I HURT YOU IN ANY WAY!
LOVE YOU GIRL! =)
(unknown)

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 12/31/06 3:11am
XYRA...
SORRY HA! KINDA MAGULO LANG ME NGAYON KAYA MOODY ME! MAYBE I JUST MISS YOU GUYS... BASTA ALWAYS TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF K! I'M JUST A TEXT AWAY! SEE YAH! LOVE YAH! =P MWUAHKS...
(unknown)
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Sunday, August 5, 2012

A Final Word To Attain MY VOW

(You might think it's stupid, I know. You write and you just hope and you trust that the message will come across. I guess this is what happens if you were not given a closure. You act on it and give yourself a decent closure. It's over! haha I'm all smiles...)

My last message for Ace:

"I don't hate you. It's over and acceptance is the key. Apparently I have fully accepted everything. I feel light as a feather. Maybe because I know in my heart that I didn't do anything to hurt you. I didn't do anything wrong. I did everything for the best. I never lied. I never cheated. I was a good person to you. My heart is pure. I think that's the reason why I feel happy and free! There's no guilt, no remorse, no regrets but all smiles. There is no more hate in my heart after all. Even after all the things you did, I am happy. I am free! Whatever happened, whatever you did.. is definitely not my burden to take. I'm guilt-free!

I just want you to know Ace, that I don't hate you. I still love you and I would only want the best for you. I thank you for all the love that you have given me. I appreciate everything that you did for me and all the efforts you made for me. I thank you for the genuine love and devotion you gave me. It mattered a lot to me. After all the bad things you did, I know you did something right and I keep that in my heart.

Wherever you are, whatever you do, I wish you all the best. I know you can not bear the idea of facing me again after everything you did. I just want you to know that I have already forgiven you and I really hope we can still be friends. I hope you forgive yourself too. There are other worse scenarios you know and other worse people than you. You're not all that bad. I know that you have a good heart. I hope you find yourself again.

There is still hope for you. I'm sorry if I ever did something or made you feel something that led you to be the way you are now. I want to be there for you.

Thank you so much for everything. You are a good person. You have a good heart. I really hope you come back to the your true self."

 It's never too late.

The Final Good byes = The End

    • Xyra Contreras
      August 4, 2012
      Xyra Contreras
      • Hello to you all,

        For the record, I just want to say that Ace had been a very good kuya to his siblings. When we were together, Ace was devoted to his family as much as he was devoted to me. He never sacrificed his family. He was always looking after their welfare. When we were together, our rule was always "our family first" because I also help my dad and my family.
        Back in the days, I saw the way my dad is with Ace. He was very responsible and he always made sure that his family is okay. He was very consistent in providing for them. I decided to message you because I want to give Ace credit for everything he had done for his family. He did everything for them. It was not easy for Ace especially when issues ALWAYS come into play. It’s unfair for Ace if his efforts are not noticed. Especially now, that he is no longer communicating well with Nanay and his family. It’s easy to notice the bad things and it’s so easy to forget the good things that one had done. It was very exhausting for Ace to begin with. I guess he just got tired.

        For all the bad things Ace had done, he definitely did something right and I keep that in my heart. I have already forgiven him. I hope he find it in his heart to forgive himself, come back to all of you, reunite with Nanay and his family. Ace has a good heart. Everything happens for a reason. I know you all love Ace to bits. I always wish the best for you and your family.

        This is my good bye to all of you. Thank you for everything and thank you so much for listening. God bless you all.

        Good bye
    • Joselito Cedro Hitosis
      August 4, 2012
      Joselito Cedro Hitosis
      • Thanks for the admirable words your have spoken/written for our nephew Ace most esp your forgiveness. You made him that way in all in his good effort and love to his family and to you as well... I wish him and you all the best, praying that you continue to move on and see the brighter side of what happened.
        God bless you Xyra, Ingat palagi...
    • Janneth Godwin
      August 4, 2012
      Janneth Godwin
      • Thank you Xyra! You take care of yourself... All the best! Have a good life. Love to u and to your family xxx